| | So it's been crazy with things in my family lately. In the past 10 months we have lost three family members, I moved, and we had a new baby born into our lives. So to start, we lost my uncle in October to cancer, my grandpa in February, and my grandma just passed away this past week. Today is her service this is why I'm thinking about things with her. My sister had a baby, and he is the sweetest thing, and I moved from one location to another and it's been hectic. So what I'm doing now is refecting about things and where I stand with all this stuff happening. Well, the moving thing and my grandma getting worse started this past week. I moved because I felt God calling me in a new direction. One that calls for me to move from where I was back to where my parents are. It's so wierd not having to pay big time rent. I mean I still have to pay rent, but not as much as I would have if I was livning in an apartment. Anyway, the past week or so has been a week of stress because of all the worry about my grandma and then moving on top of it. So here I am sitting here this morning, reflecting on my experience and where I'm heading with everything in my life. To think about this stuff makes me wonder most about my legacy and what I will leave for my kids and grandkids. Before my grandparents passing, they made wills (well at least my grandpa did). They made sure that their kids were taken care of with things. I don't know the exacts of anything, but I know that my grandpa always had a heart that wanted to take care of family. In my case, what kind of legacy do I want to leave for my kids and grandkids. What kind of person do I want to be where I show this in me. What kind of things do I need to get prepared in my heart. Not just in finances, but also in life. When my family looks back at my legacy, what are they going to remember about me? This has been something to think about with me. I know that what I strive to leave behind is someone full of integrity, who never complains about things. Someone who, when you look at my life you can say that "Sarah was a good and godly woman, who never compromised herself for the sake of something trivial. I want people to see me as someone who fights for love and fights for what she believes in. I want to be someone who shows the world what Jesus really looked like by living her life as much in his image as I possibly can. These thoughts of a legacy have really creeped up in my a lot lately because of what has happened, but also because I have seen where I stand on things and what I need to change in myself. I am not saying that we should do all this by ourselves. I"m saying we need to ask God for direction and go in the direction he guides us in. You have to work at some things, but with the strength of the Lord, you can do it. It may feel hard, but to me, nothing worth anything is ever easy. It's hard to stay out of the flesh. It's hard not to complain about everything piddly thing. But when you have the strength of the Lord, you can take flight and let your legacy live through your daily life and not just by what you wish for in your life. This to me truly is the legacy that I strive for. Yes I"m not perfect, but I"m also human and as a human, when you can admit your faults and when you are wrong, it shows people that you can live with integrity in your life. Thank God for everything he is revealing to me!
Sarah
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