This is interesting to me. Here I am sitting at my computer desk writing this and thinking about some things in my life. Things that are not the greatest such as my finances right now and how this has affected the way I've approached things in the last year. I've thought about how I had cried out to God about how I know that he's doing something, but I"m not seeing it and for him to show it to me. I've cried because I've felt helpless in this situation to where I was not able to be all that I know I can be.

And then just like that I got a vision in my head of what kinds of things I need to do to get my finances back on track. I thought about how I could start budgeting better and how in this time no matter what, God was stll providing even though I didn't feel like it was happening. I also thought about how when I felt like I was in need of money for a certain thing such as gas in my car, God always came through. He will always come through. Last night at church a word was spoken and I feel like it was for me because it seems like the way I"ve felt for the last couple of months. It was that we are rounding the corner, for a while we have been approaching that spot, but now we are rounding the corner and when you go around the corner there is a new view of whatever you are looking at. That makes me excited to hear that because I feel like I am seeing new and better things. Instead of just relying on what is on the outside, I want to look at what is invisible. What I mean by this is I want to see what is always there and constant and not on the little things that are happening right now. I want to look at the big picture instead of the small picture of where my mind takes me. I want to look beyond and have my mind blown ten times over by the goodness and greatness of God and ALL the possibilities that he is throwing in my direction. I want to reach the lost and dying world in a new way, in a way that pleases God. I think this is the most important thing right now because when we see the impossible as possible, it really is amazing. Imagine if Thomas Edison gave up after one try with the light bulb. We would never have the light bulb. Think about how he thought about something that seemed impossible and didn't work for at least 30 times before he finally got it down. He could have given up because of what he saw in the natural sense, but he didn't and today light bulbs are everywhere. To me, if he could do that, I think I can look at the big picture myself.